Well, here we are, August. Summer always seems to fly by. Normally by this time I have a little itch to return to work, but not this year. Being a stay at home mommy, although incredibly challenging, has been the best time of my life. I am not only afraid of how Carson will react to the separation, but I am afraid of me being anxious when he isn't around. I will surely miss him, the hugs, and the laughs we have had each and every day. I seriously think being home has been more difficult than going to work, but I have learned to love every whiny moment. Not only am I anxious to leave my son, I am extremely anxious to enter my new job placement. I am leaving behind some great staff members and great friends at the other building, but I am also leaving other 'things' behind purposefully. I am nervous about new coworkers, parents, sixty freaking kids, and the new surrounding. I am already crazy about it. So much, that I am already dreaming that the first day of school is here and I have nothing done. The staff is refusing to help me. And the kids are nightmares. I don't need more on my plate, the nightmares can stop already. I feel like I haven't been able to relax, much, all summer, and now I can't because summer is nearly over. Oh, well. Time to saddle up and get ready for the changes because they are coming whether I want them to or not. I am just so afraid that maybe I made the wrong decision....maybe I should have stayed or bid on a position there. Lord, help me!!!
Carson started getting sick on Thursday. It is times like this--when he has a 104 fever and is restless and moaning and not eating--that being at home is priceless. I love the cuddling and the sweet eyes that look at me to make him feel better. I love that little guy. My life wouldn't be the same without him!! Thank God for summer!!
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God has a plan for you so don't worry about making the right decision - it will all work out! Enjoy these last few weeks because you will be dreaming of them come December!
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