I didn't know another way

Hey Y'all, I didn't know another way to do this, because I am now on spring break and cannot access my school email. Rather, I don't know how. So this is for all the peeps who attend our group.
The topic of our next bible study is Study...
Here are the verses, there are a lot, which is better because it is three weeks away :)
Proverbs 1:1-9; 23:12, 23
James 1:5
Hebrews 4:11-13
2 Timothy 3:16-17
Philippians 4:8-9
Colossians 3:1-17
Luke 10:38-42
Ezra 7:10
James 1:19-25
Acts 17:1-3, 17:10-12, 19:8-10
Proverbs 24:30-34

And please don't only look into the verses that I provide, seek other sources too...See ya'll on the 9th at 7pm!!

Unwelcome Revelations

Sometimes I just don't like finding stuff out about myself. Sometime they are things that people have told me, like my husband, but I don't like the moment when I realize that it is true.
I wouldn't mind finding out that I was nice and friendly and that everyone looked up to me. I hate realizing the negative.
I don't know if I am ready to spill the beans about what I am finding out about myself. Maybe you already know, but I would like to keep it to myself until I find out how to change.
I want to give a 'shout out' apology to anyone that I have ever hurt, or made mad, or was rude to. Sometimes I am mean and unapologetic about the way I am....
Oh, I don't like this, I don't like this at all.

Sweeter Than Honey

I am an admitted sweet addict. I can be found downing anything with sugar throughout the ENTIRE day, and that is no exaggeration. I love cookies, anything with chocolate, donuts, flavored coffee, and anything else with a million calories.
I have been reading for the last couple weeks about fasting. I didn't really know the purpose. It seemed that most people did it (in bible times) when they were praying for something huge or waiting for an answer (Ester and the rest of the Jews fasted before she went to the king, a risky step). So my thoughts were that it was just to be used "in case of emergency", but the verses that I read this morning told me otherwise. The book of Isaiah cited many reasons for fasting.
As I was reading this morning I realized that fasting is a way to show God your obedience. You give up a huge part of the day, eating. At the Quest, they suggested to start small. So I am giving it a go. No sweets for today! Every time I am confronted by the temptation, and I already have been today, I remind myself that God is sweeter than______. This morning already I already was confronted by big, yummy donuts. I reminded myself of how great God is and walked right past as people tried to get me to eat them.
I am not writing to boast, but more to be kept accountable. If I don't tell anyone, it really wouldn't matter if I messed up. God would notice, but no one else would know. I know that sounds horrible, but it is how I would think, I just know it.
So, next time you write, ask me how I am doing. I am attempting to give God the part of my day that I spend eating and thinking about sugared foods. To him, be all the glory!!

Beautiful

I find it pretty pitiful that I get excited when I am driving by a group of guys who are walking and when I pass they all turn around to keep looking at me. I think, "that must mean that I am something special, right? That must mean that I am at least somewhat pretty". I am so insecure about my looks that I take things like this, that should be offensive, and turn them around so it is a positive.
I live to be beautiful...I have been trying my whole life to impress the 'world'. I wake up thinking, what outfit will make me look the best? How should I do my hair, so it is cute enough? I am absolutely obsessed with being the worlds view of beautiful. I stress about not being skinny enough. I think that I need beautiful blue eyes instead of brown. And I could go on forever.
I am not writing this to get everyone to write that I am pretty and cute or whatever. I am writing this because I am slowly opeing up to a new revelation in my life that was brought on by a song. It is called 'Beautiful' by Bethany Dillion. The chorus goes:
I want to be beautiful
Make you stand in awe
Look inside my heart
And be amazed
I want to hear you say
Who I am is quite enough
Just want to be worthy of love
And beautiful
As I listen to this song, I realize that I was singing it to the wrong people. I have been singing this to my husband, to my friends, and to the remainder of the world.
I have been realizing that I need to change my audience. I need to sing this to God. As I started pouring my heart out into this song and singing it to the right person, the creator, he laid it on my heart, that I am. I am all of this. Jesus paved the way for me and because of his blood, I am beautiful, I am worthy. The final part of the song goes like this, and I sing it the loudest!!
You make me beautiful
You make me stand in awe
You step inside my heart
And I am amazed
I love to hear you say
Who I am is quite enough
You make me worthy of love
And beautiful
God is so awesome, to think everything that he does for me even though I am ungrateful. I am so blessed that Jesus has made me worthy and beautiful. Whatever the world thinks doesn't compare to what he thinks. Thank you Lord for being so great and loving!!!

It's gonna be a bright, sunshiny day

If you can't tell, I think I am in a better mood today :) It seems like my life is very similar to a roller coaster, and I have periods that are at the bottom of the hill, and others that are on the top, and then still others that are approaching the top...
I woke up with a better feeling today. I had been slightly depressed, but I feel good today. I realized that even though it is a crappy, gloomy, gray day, that I can still praise God because he has done so many amazing things in my life.
My bible study group talked about Praying on Saturday and we decided to keep each other accountable about spending time with God in prayer. I find that in keeping others accountable, that I too keep myself in check. I love that group and the amazing dynamics that we have. Everyone is so unique, but everyone has a passion for God.
I want to send a 'shout out' to everyone who has kept me in their prayers while I was feeling blue. I am back, and I am excited for what God has in store. Thanks again!!

Tongue Tied

I really don't have much to say, but I haven't written in quite some time...
I am at the point where there is so much floating around in my head that I can't really put together a rational thought. My days are consumed with stress and the one thing that I find I look forward to is sleep. The problem with that, however, is that I just wake back up to it in the morning.
My relationship with God right now has taken a back seat to everything else, I am sorry to say.
You know something is out of the ordinary when I can't find words to write....