I Am Trusting You

I had a rough night the other night... I had went four days without 'talking' to the john, but a long walk with my friend, Sarah, changed that. I came home and instantly brought up all my food from the day. I was pretty used to that, but it was what followed that had me scared silly.
I was awaken with a stabbing pain in my lower abdomen. It was severe. I had read about pain and cramping from your ever increasing insides, but I had never imagined it would be that terrifying.
I quietly snuck out of the room and sat on the couch, it was nearly 4am! Greg noticed I left, so he came out to see if I was okay. As soon as he sat I broke down. I was so scared. I was SO scared.
After I told him to go back to bed I realized, I have no control over this pregnancy. I have no control, other than managing my health, over the outcome of this pregnancy. It was scary to think that you can't do anything to stop a miscarriage.
I was comforted, though, by the realization that someone so powerful and loving did have control. My mantra that entire night, and every day since is "I am trusting you".
I am putting my hope and trust in God. I am trusting that he will allow this baby to develop and grow according to his will. I am trusting that he will ensure the birth of a healthy, beautiful baby in seven months. I am trusting that God is in control and he will do anything for this child. After all, he loves children.
So here I am again, faced with the humility that I have no control. But I am okay with that. I would rather have God driving.
He got me through that night, and he continues to get me through each day. The baby is fine, why wouldn't he be, he is in God's hands.

New Life

Well, I would rather be laying down at the moment due to my daily nausea and vomiting, but I really wanted to post the good news for the world to hear. If you haven't heard from my father yet, Greg and I are expecting a baby. Currently I am 6 weeks and five days. I am not very far along, but far enough to experience the side effects of crazy hormones and an 'alien life' inside of me.
Don't take all my complaining the wrong way. Greg and I are VERY EXCITED to become parents. We are already talking about room renovation and paint colors. We have a long time to plan because I am not due until February 24th.
It has been an interesting first experience with pregnancy for me. It doesn't seem real yet, because I don't have the belly. I am looking forward to the belly :) The one thing that makes it the most real is the constant nausea. The one thing that people keep telling me that keeps me optimistic is that if your have a good, strong pregnancy your hormones are off the wall, which will cause a constant state of nausea. So, I guess this pregnancy must be REALLY strong, lol.
Please keep us in your prayers for my health but most importantly the health of the baby. I am so pumped to share this experience with all of you.
Congrats also to Tina and Jessica!! I am glad I am not going through this alone :)